Tonight, sitting in the University's library I look around me and think, what if?
What if I hadn't chosen this school?
What if I hadn't graduated?
What if I had never let go?
What if I hadn't left?
What if I had never opened my heart to love?
What if..... What if.
"Life too short to even care at all... I'm losing my mind, losing my mind, losing control."
Somedays, I break down and look back. I start to think about what my life would be like if I hadn't moved 5 years ago from the very place that I knew as hell, to Victoria. I think about what would have happened if I had kept the same friends, if I hadn't gone to Africa, if I hadn't fallen in love. Who would I be then? Would I be even remotely similar to who I am now? Am I happy with who I am now? Is this the life I want for me?
We all do it. We all have a moment in our lives where we break down and ask ourselves, what if?
"If we don't move forward, we are just standing still."
We can ask ourselves what our lives would be like if we made different decisions, took different paths, met different people. In the end though, we will never know.
Life is unpredictable. There is no way we can know what could have happened.
Life is ever-changing. The things we used to want for ourselves change and evolve as we do.
Life is ever-moving. If we dwell on the past, we will miss out on the present.
All of us, myself included, must stop dwelling on the past and the what-ifs in life. We must accept that what could have been is gone, but what is and what could be is still alive. We must make the most of what is happening now, and dream for the future. What has been, was wonderful. What is, is incredible. What will be, well let's see shall we?
Carpe Diem. Seize the day.
Seize everyday, for the rest of your life.
QOTB: Yesterday is gone. Tomorrow has not yet come. We have only today. Let us begin. -Mother Teresa
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