Precious.

   Watched "Precious" tonight... am completely without words. Left my mother shocked with my reaction to the movie, turning it off at the end, going to my room and slamming my door. "It's just a movie sweetheart." No, it's not. There are kids out there that are treated like that. Physically and emotionally abused by their families and other people they might know. Being sexually abused, having to live in poverty. It was a brutally raw movie, making me sick to my stomach whilst at the same time bringing tears to my eyes, feeling the strength her character had basically come out of the screen. Seeing her at the end, only 17, with nothing but her two children, gave me more hope than anything. It might not make sense and you might never fully understand, but a hero was born through her character.

  The admin of Pearson Heather G, has been posting a blog ever since the applications were sent in. No one in Canada has heard yet whether they have made it to the short lists (interview part) or not. Im guessing it will be in the next couple weeks. Am excited to be going to Ontario on the 1st of May- Been invited by the Rotary Club of Ottawa for their "Adventure into Citizenship" award. I am mostly excited about the Canadian Citizenship Ceremony we will get to go to, seeing people become citizens of my country will be amazing.

  Things have been a lil iffy lately, with some chapters in my life ending and more beginning.  As Mignon McLaughlin once said, "Life is a mixed blessing, which we vainly try to unmix." Everything happens for a reason right? Us coming to an end, me going away next year, it all happens because it is meant to. I'm not going to try and fight it anymore. :)

QOTB: Life’s not always fair. Sometimes you can get a splinter even sliding down a rainbow.              ~Cherralea Morgen

So it goes something like this...

Kay.
Since I like this keyboard and I am in the most serious stages of procrasination, I'm just gunna write about anything and everything that comes to mind. So warning to the ADD people out there, this entry is not for you.

   FIRSTLY: Cliques.
I hate the fact that you wont hang out with me because I'm a "Nerd." It's not like I can't speak your language, it's not like I have webbed fingers and a green face, I'm just smart. I don't judge you for being in love with sports. I don't judge you for how you look, how you act or who your friends are, so why do you judge me? I don't believe we should be categorized into groups like: sluts, jocks, punks, skaters, nerds, popular kids. Why can't we all just be ourselves? The sad fact is that I hear people calling me "Nerd" or "Geek" more than I hear people call me by my real name everyday at school. I don't refer to you as "That stupid kid with the tight clothing and the lopsidded hair", so please don't refer to me as a Nerd.

SECONDLY: Relationships.
They bug me. I don't understand them anymore. They are great when your in one, but as soon as the relationship demolishes, your all like "and the point of that was...?" Why can't we just date. So that when the person gets on our nerves or boring, we can't just screen their calls. No more messy breakups, no more broken hearts, just move on with your life and find the next skipper that appeals to you.

THIRDLY: THE FREEGEN OLYMPICS.
Well it's ovious I don't like them. I don't see the point to them. Well that's not true, I like the way they bring countries from all over the world together... BUT THEY DO IT SO THEY CAN COMPETE. But seriously, when I look at all the money they spent on the olympics to make it look all fancy, it breaks my heart. All the money they spent on this years olympics alone could have been enough to HELP EVERY SINGLE FRICKEN PERSON IN HAITI. Enough to make them all have a roof over their heads and food in their bellies. GRR.

The reason for the season baby.

   Happy Christmas everyone. I hope the true reason for this season is still in your heart. Not the presents and the baubles, but the togetherness, the laughter and the love. For me, it wasn't the opening of the presents or the enthusiam towards the gifts that made me smile, but those lingering moments, the laughter and smiles when remembering those fond past christmas memories and the love that floated over everyone like a cloud of smoke. Sadly, no matter what... I always get down around the holidays. Christmas gets more commercialized each year and there is nothing I can do about it but sit there and watch as it consumes the people around me. Not with the fact that this season is supposed to bring us together, to make us thankful with what we have and who we have in our lives... . But rather the people are consumed in last minute shopping, what they will recieve and who can purchase the greatest gift. For all you out there that still remember the true meaning of christmas in your heart, then I give you my congratulations. Cherish those smiles... Those moments of laughter and those moments that make your heart swell with joy as you realize how lucky you truely are and never let the true meaning of christmas fade.

   Birthday in 2 days. My current feeling about this include: anxiousness, nerviousness and "blindness".  So many things will take place in my 16th year of life including either acceptance or rejection to UWC, Service project to Kenya, whether or not i'll be able to raise $12,000 for Kenya and so much more. I think my biggest fear about turning 16 is that I know as soon as I do, there is no hiding from what lies ahead. No backing out, or running away. I will have to face my future with an open mind, a understanding heart and a couragious soul. We'll just have to wait and see how it turns out!

Quote of the day:
"The smoothest way is full of stones" - Yiddish proverb

Like a maze.

Had a really good chat with a new friend tonight. During out conversation, he asked me what my opinion was on fate. Whether I believed  in what if's, or that our lifes already planned out. My personal opinion? I belive when god plans out our lives, he creates it like a maze. there will be dead ends, right ways to go and some not so smart ways to go. Only we can decide which path we decide to take. Only we can decide how we react when we are met with a dead end. Do you just sit down and admit defeat? Or do you go back and try to find a different path to take. Now, look back at your life. How many dead ends can you remember? Was it maybe as severe as a divorce in your family, or just a bad grade in a certian class. Did you raise the white flag? Or did you say "Im not going to let this stop me" and keep going?

See that girl? She's a uniquer.

Quarky.. Akward... Weird.. Strange... Funny... Lovable... Unusual... Unique. All of these are words that I have heard when I ask people "What do you think of me?" Personally, I like to be thought of as Uniquer :)

   There are just so many things about me that are different. For example, I love taking pictures. Not just of things like plants and such, but of people. Not of people I know, but of random people that I see. I may not know them, but I believe that a picture is worth a thousand words and with a good photo you can imagine what their story is.

  My idea of a fun weekend is doing a 8hour shift at the homeless shelter in Victoria. Unlike some people who  believe that these guys decided to be homeless, I know different. It makes it all worth those endless hours of being elbow deep in soup and mayo sandwhiches when that one person comes up to me, gives me a big smile and says "thank you".

  I've never been able to be part of just one clique. Im a jock, a nerd, a goth, a rebel and a tree hugger all in one package! People find it odd that im friends with the football captain, the schools well known stoner, the top acedemic student and even some of the caf kids (who are some pretty spamtastic people if you get to know them).

  These are just some of the things that I am. My hope is that people will never be able to find a term to define me other than "Unique".