Alive.

K, well this is it.
   Tonight at midnight, UWC's doors close to applicants. If you application isn't in, your screwed. A part of me wishes that some people will have missed the dealine, but another part of me hopes that everyone who wanted to gets their application in. Now, we wait. We wait until they contact us. Telling us whether we got an interview or if we weren't even considered for one. Then, we go to the interview, do our lil bit, take part in a workshop or two and then we wait some more. We wont really know until May if were in or not. The suspense is going to kill me but the weight is lifted now. I can now relax. Focus on rebuilding my friendships that fell through the cracks, working on my personal hobbies like photography and do a lot more volunteering.

   *sighs* Im really worried. One of my buds A... She's going through a lot at the moment. I want to help her, let her know that im here for her.... But I don't know how. I know the cuts still fresh for her and I know I should give her some space... But im worried about her..
If you read this girlie... Know that I love you. All your friends here love you... If you don't want to be there anymore, come back home to us and we'll take care of you.




  I can't wait to get outa here. I feel as if it's too late for me to build new friendships or create new ones here. I feel as if this part of my life is done. Specially now that your not even talking to me... I need to get outa here. I need to be around people who think like I do and act like I do. Im going to Kenya now just so I can get out of here. I feel as if im in a room that is getting smaller and smaller....

I CAN'T BREATHE.

QOTB: Heaven is not a place that you go  when you die, it's the moment in life when you actually feel alive.