Today was a thinking day for me. One of those days where you take everything currently going on in your life right now, lay it out on your minds imaginary table and analize every friggen detail of each thing. It's exausting. Somethings you are satisfied with so you leave them be, there are some you will spend very little time looking and at some that you will spend more time looking then the others. One thing that I spent a lot of time thinking about today was my friends. I realize that I haven't been a very good friend to any of my friends lately and for that I am truely sorry. This year has been a struggle for me. So much is on the line this year, basically this year will decide the difference between me living out my lifes dreams, or staying in Victoria and doing the same as everyone else. I want to make a difference, I want to change the world! I know it may feel that I am ditching you guys, but I just need to focus. All of my being is going into my goal for UWC and im making a lot of sacrifices to make it happen. Just remember that I love you all very much and if you can understand and wait until my application is in, then you are THE BEST FRIENDS EVER.
Today I had a thought.. What happens if I don't get into UWC's? What will I do then? I refuse to go back to my local highschool... I could never face the people I would have let down if I didn't get in. I'd find it hard to be at home... For my family always believed in me with all their being.. I could never cope with it.... So im going to give it my all.
Quote of the day:
I will always be envious of the birds that fly high in the sky.
Ah! :) So awesome! xoxo
ReplyDeleteI really like the quotes. :P