Flame of Hope.

I see him sitting there, shivering cold

Not knowing what his future will hold.

All he can think of is his need to eat.

In his eyes, I see a flickering flame

Everyday he finds new ways to cope

Despite it all, he still has hope

Still, he lives with this overwhelming shame.

For all that I have, I feel that I could share

And I take his hands and hold them tight

I let him know it will all be alright

With one act of love, I can show I care

His once begging lips will beg no longer

For I will take him away and make him stronger.

Superman (it's not easy)

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me
I’m more than a bird...I’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me

I Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see

It may sound absurd...but don’t be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but won’t you concede
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me

Up, up and away...away from me
It’s all right...You can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy...or anything…

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me

It’s not easy to be me.

The light inside me, will never be estinguished.

   Well, after two years of waiting... The results are in. Sadly, I didn't get accepted to United World Colleges. It's been over 24hours since I found out, but it still stings.  I know life is about putting yourself on the line, risking everything to achieve your dreams... But what happens when you don't make it? Does that mean that you're not good enough? Everyone around me; my friends, my family, are speechless. They look at me with pity, with confusion. They don't understand it either. They are waiting for me to cry, but I can't cry any longer. They wait for me to scream words of hate and anger, but I feel no anger. They all asume that my inner fire has been estinguished... But it hasn't. Deep inside me, my wick is still alight. It may not be a huge flame right now, but it's still on fire.

  I am not going to dwell on this bump on the road of my life. It is only an obsticle after all. Life will go on, I will continue to put my entire self into everything I do. I will live each day to the fullest, embracing life and the opportunities it gives me. If anything, not getting into UWC will only drive me to do better in life, to exceed others expectations and my own. With or without them, I will make a difference in the world.

  A special thank you to all of my friends and my family, that have been completely supportive while I handled all of this. You guys have been so supportive this whole time, believing in me when I couldn't. Without you guys, I wouldn't even be half of the person I am now. You have always believed in me and all of my dreams. Because of you, I will never give up on my dreams. I love you all so much.

QOTB: Believe in yourself and all that you are. Know that there is something inside of you that is greater than any obstacle.

Let's believe.

I believe,
That either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I believe,
That even when you think you have no more to give, when a loved one cries out to you- you will find the will to help.

I believe,
That it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I believe,
That sometimes the person you expected to kick you when you fall down, will be the ones that will help you back up.

I believe,
That true friendship continues to grown, even over the longest distance.

I believe,
That there is someone out there for everyone.

I believe,
That we all have the ability to change someone's life with nothing more than a kind gesture.

I believe,
That we all have the ability to make our dreams come true.

I believe,
That two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

I believe,
That the past is behind us, with love in front and all around us.

Precious.

   Watched "Precious" tonight... am completely without words. Left my mother shocked with my reaction to the movie, turning it off at the end, going to my room and slamming my door. "It's just a movie sweetheart." No, it's not. There are kids out there that are treated like that. Physically and emotionally abused by their families and other people they might know. Being sexually abused, having to live in poverty. It was a brutally raw movie, making me sick to my stomach whilst at the same time bringing tears to my eyes, feeling the strength her character had basically come out of the screen. Seeing her at the end, only 17, with nothing but her two children, gave me more hope than anything. It might not make sense and you might never fully understand, but a hero was born through her character.

  The admin of Pearson Heather G, has been posting a blog ever since the applications were sent in. No one in Canada has heard yet whether they have made it to the short lists (interview part) or not. Im guessing it will be in the next couple weeks. Am excited to be going to Ontario on the 1st of May- Been invited by the Rotary Club of Ottawa for their "Adventure into Citizenship" award. I am mostly excited about the Canadian Citizenship Ceremony we will get to go to, seeing people become citizens of my country will be amazing.

  Things have been a lil iffy lately, with some chapters in my life ending and more beginning.  As Mignon McLaughlin once said, "Life is a mixed blessing, which we vainly try to unmix." Everything happens for a reason right? Us coming to an end, me going away next year, it all happens because it is meant to. I'm not going to try and fight it anymore. :)

QOTB: Life’s not always fair. Sometimes you can get a splinter even sliding down a rainbow.              ~Cherralea Morgen