Anything is possible.

I have a quote. A quote that I live by.
  "We are all better than we know. If only we can be made to realize this than we may never be willing to settle for anthing less." -Kurt Hahn.

Kurt Hahn was the founder of Outward Bound, Round Square, and many other organizations along with United World Colleges. I like him ^^
It's people like Kurt Hahn that I consider inspiration. This man was told throughout his life that he was incapable of doing what he wanted to, but that just made him want to do it more. Im like that.  When people tell me there is no way I can accomplish something... Im going to try x10 harder.

The thing is guys, we are all capable of doing anything we set our mind and heart to. If challenges cross your path, don't see them as dead ends but as hurdles that you must jump over. If I can make all of my dreams come true, so can you :)


Remember: If it's going to be, it's up to me.

CHA CHING!

Well today was the best day ive had in like...a year! And for some of the weirdest reasons!
Firstly and most ovious, I saw my wonderful boyfriend and gotta hang out with him for a bit which made me all happy and lovey dovey. BUT ALSO, found out my grade average for last semester was A instead of A-! ANDDDDD, finished work experience 12 which I got 100% ANDDDDDDD got my reference letters for my UWC application figured out ANDDDD FINALLY figured/sorted our my project for University of Victoria.

YES YES YES YES. Life is good :)

Is love unknown.

*sighs* I don't even know where to start. So much is going on lately. I unno where I stand on everything. My head keeps spinning... It just wont stop, no matter what I do. I try to distract myself, try to get my mind off things. But as soon as I sit down, as soon as I close my eyes at the end of the day... It just comes on back. You keep asking me what's wrong. I try to tell you, but when I hear it come out of my mouth, it doesn't seem like something I should be upset about. The thing is, it is upsetting me. It's upsetting me a lot. When I tell people, they say that they understand and that everything will work out, but I doubt it. What if it doesnt? I'll be a hopeless mess. I won't know what to do next.
AYE AYE AYE.

QOTB: To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream; not only plan, but also believe.

In the springtime, when the blossoms unfold.

Im Done! First semester is over. YES YES YES. Gosh, best thing thats happened to me all year (Cept you Bradleyyy).

But! Not much to catch up on. 3weeks until UWC applications are due. Im UBER nervous. Have been all depressed about it the past two weeks, worried about what would happen if I didn't get in, so ive been putting off the application. Im not very good at rejection with this kinda stuff. Makes me just wanna scream "SCREW U BABOONS". I really hope I get in though..

Am toats pumped for our week off school. Gunna spend some time with Brad and give him some VERY deserved TLC. He's been absolutly amazing with the past couple weeks. Ive been all the over the place with the stress of exams, nervousness bout UWC and stuff at home. He's always been there though. God bless that goofy guy.

Watched "Hope for Haiti" tonight with my mam. It's gotten me thinking on how in some ways it's kinda sad how people of reacted. Soon, once Haiti is somewhat back on it's feet, it's ovious that the people of the World will go back to their self absorbed lives. TO think it took a level 7 earthquake to wake the world up and make them unite so that we could help a poverty striken country. The thing is though... What about all the other problems in the world? Things like orphaned children because of AIDS and woman being brutally raped and murdered in the Congo is still going on everday... Where is all the needed aid for those situations? The thing is, people are paying attention to Haiti because they see it as a quick fix.. 6-12 months and Haiti will be off the nations news. But what about those people being affected by AIDS, war and poverty all over the world. Where are we when they cry to us for help? It happens everyday... Where are we when those children are dying in 3rd world countries from something as common as diarrhea? We must Unite, all of us and help make our world a better place. To help those that have been suffering for a long time...

BUT ON A HAPPIER NOTE. Im really happy for two of my buds Allie and Corinne.
Both have found themselves amazing boyfriends in the past year and I couldnt be happier for them. They are both fantastic girls and deserve it 100%. Good for you girls :)


QOTB:  Home is not where you live, but where they understand you.

Kenya Bound.

HAS ANYONE SEEN 'OUT OF AFRICA'? It's such an amazing film. Starring Meryl Streep, it takes place from 1913- 1931 when a baroness from Denmark moves to Kenya with her husband that she only married for status, to have a new start and find the adventure that she had always been seeking. This movie reminds me of my life. Living in a place that has somewhat become dull to me and feeling the need for adventure pump through my veins like blood. Im counting down the days now.. Until I am out of here. Until the next chapter of my life starts. I will leave behind all the shit in my life, the regrets, the accidents... and it will all become new! I will be in Kenya in 6months, just like the baronness. Kenya is all I have to look forward to. Well that and UWC.  I can't wait for that feeling you get when your somewhere you don't know. The confusion, the nervousness, the lust to explore and the surges of adrenaline. This is no longer something I want, its something I need. I NEED to go to Kenya. I NEED to go to UWC. I NEED to get out of here.

Love in my pocket.

You gave me something special,
in the shape of a heart.
There was a story behind it,
a wonderful one at that.
I now keep it on me always.
So that whenever im feeling blue,
I just have to pull it out
and then I think of you.
I keep it in my pocket
and the thought of it makes me smile.
For now wherever I go,
I know i've got love in my pocket.

Unique like a brown skittle

Gah! Have to write this down, cuz it just made my 2010 (even though 2010 is only two days old) CURTIS BABY. You are the best. When everyone's been going in and out of my life, you've stuck around. Whenever I've needed to vent, a shoulder to cry on, a hug to cheer me up or some inspirational words to keep me going towards my goal of UWC, you've been one of those people I could always count on! Me and you have been through a lot bud, we dated and yet we were still able to remain friends. Seeing how much you believe in me makes me believe in myself and reach for my goal even more. You are a fantastic friend and I hope we will be in eachothers lives until you are old and wrinkly (I won't be of course, due to botox), in our rocking chairs playing Wii! Your one in a kabillion babe and im one of the luckiest chicks in the world to be able to call you my friend :)
P.s. thanks for the quote bud :P

QOTB (quote of this blog): you are unique like a brown skittle. because there has never been a brown skittle. and there shall never be another.

A new start.

It's a new year. A fresh start, a clean slate. All the negaitive memories and actions from the past year can be left behind and forgotton, while all the positive ones an be brought forward into our new beginning. Look back over your last year. What are the things that you will be leaving behind in the past? What are the things that you will be bringing with you into the future? What will you do differently this year? What will you continue to do the same? There are so many questions we can ask ourselves.

When it comes to me, I know the answers to all of these questions. There are so many things i plan to leave in my past. Fueds with former friends, mistakes, selfishness, my tendancy to give up when it gets rough, my unwillingness to be social outside of school hours and a lot more. From now on, I will always be completely honest, no matter what the sitaution. From now on I will do my best to make time for my friends and from now on I will never give up, no matter how tough things get.

 This year is going to be one of the most important years of my life and I refuse to let it start out negitavely.

Quote of the day: Cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get things right.